july comes

today is the last day of june.. goodbye june.. when i thought back wht did i do in this month?? i thought back my friendship.. this month i went out and had a fun... it became sweet memory tht i never forget... and study... today is my cousin sister's birthday.. because her region, she didnot celebrate it... at here i will tell her " happy birthday" 19 years old... hahaha... ce san, jia you lo in ur job... hahaha... why does time walk fastly??? i only close my heart for a while then open it again, it is the beginner of july... 3 months again uec lo... hahaha... i am scare ah.... this year really happy.. hahaha...

dong chen wei has new song hahaha...

i think it is very rock.. hahaha...

their new album will release on 9 july...

so i am waiting for it...

Danson tang already released his new album D1.. it is ok....

A chord... jia you... his song is nice too... hahaha..^^

if u want to listen A chord's song at my facebook or my msn's space.. try it..^^

tomorrow is july,.. hihi july...^^ i will try my best...

uec is coming soon, jia you lo all my friends..^^

study hard..^^

26 june till now...

26 june i was sad and happy... sad because bad result... huhuhu... i only hate myself why didnot i hardworking abit... huhuhu.. after took a result then menyesal...
Happy because i went out with friends ooo hahaha... yamcha lo... hahaha...

today... haizz.. tired day.... nothing special to talk lo... all of u are my friends... actually many thing i didnot talk... because i dun want to talk... i can said jia you in ur days... hargai lah masa awak... because waktu berjalan dengan cepat... uec is coming soon... oh no!!!! huhuhuhu jia you lo for every s3... gambateh..^^

this afternoon, my brother went to watch movie at cinema... hahaha... i'm happy for him because he never went out with his friend... hahahaha.... yong, enjoy ur movie.. hahaha....

misunderstand..

today, i am really ok... haizz... i have a bit bad mood...misunderstand again...really tired with these misunderstand about relationship with lee kok yung... if i say truthly.. i and him are nothing... we are best friend only... hahaha... i ever have feeling but i havenot now... hahaha.. so i want to talk... i dont like anyone now... and nobody likes me now... so please dun misunderstand again!!!!.... i dont care about these... i know u told and joke me in front of me... i accept it.. but i dislike who likes to talk at my back... haiz... but i really dont care...^^ haiz... about book keeping competition... it is from sunway there... wao, it's time is very short 40 menits only... tembak... hahahaha i dont know how to do again... haizzz.....

huhuhu... i am scare about tomorrow because i will take my report card with my penjaga.. huhuhu.. scare ah.... i know i'm no 1-10 from back,... hahahahaha.... scare ah...T.T

my truth word from my heart..

last night i slept at 4 o'clock in the morning.. haha... last night i cried for 2 hours. maybe i had no cried long time... i cried because i already cannt tahan again... actually i knew why i crried last night... last night, my father called me up then he scold me because my brother did mistakes then scold me.. he said i didnot listen his words then my brother follow me.. the story began with my grandma wanted to come here. my dad asked me to buy voucher for digi rm 5o 2 pieces, one for me, one for my brother.. then he asked us dont to fill it...he said if ur grandma wanted to use then fill... ok lo... till my grandma came she wanted to use my hp mah, then mine was expired then i filled it... after tht,he called me again then angry lo.. i explained to him.. then he accepted... after tht, it left 1 piese rm 50 vourcher... i told my brother to dont to fill it.. but after he came from camping, he filled it.. then last night he scold me lo.. haizz then passed lo... after tht i hadnot mood.. sometimes if my brother makes mistake, my parent scold me not them... i'm tired ah to be the eldest... haiZzzz... ya la.. all is my fault....

after tht, i felt my life was bored and tired.. all of my friend can go to which place they want to go... me? only at home.. haiz.. maybe i am jealous... i'mnot jealous they go with who... but i'm jealous why they can free?? they can go to everywhere... me, cannt my parent willnot let me go.. my parent will say "if u often go out with friend it is waste, my brother will follow ur bad attitude".. haizz i heard this sentences much time.. i know they care and worry to me but it is over le... sometimes at this age, i really want to go out... sometimes i hope i havenot brother but i hope i have big sister...coz i like to go out walk2... in home, i am the eldest i need to take care of brothers.. haizz.... sometimes i am jealous why their parent can at their side takes care of his / her brother... besides tht, when i was at primary school, i must learn how to berdikari, learn how to take care of brother.. i know this will be useful to me in my future... but i still in my world...

i'm alone.. my world have only me... who understand me?? noone lo... my parent?? no, they are busy.. only asked "what r u doing ah?? how ah ur exam??, already eat mah???then ok lo.. remember to drink vitamin ah?" only these... then off the phone... haizz... friends?? they r busy with their activities... said goods news or drama de friends got many but if sad a fews... true fried best friends... hahaha

i think i am really childish... because i am still yong.. i want to be children again.. hahaha... sometimes to be children is happy, many people cares, love.. haha actually i want to thank someone .. he is a nice boy... he is special from the other boy which i know... he is cold boy.. i'm sorry my "cool","handsome", "liang zai" these words is only for artist.. hahaha... sometimes he was cold, but he care about me.. we always play game together.. he is good listener... to be his friend, i'm gan dong ooo... tinggal sedikit i fall in love to him.. but not lo.. coz in his heart got someone.. hahaha i like him... but i hope he dosnot know lo.. coz i scare he will hide me lo...thx... coz u is there when i need u..

sorry friends, if i am really childish... i'm sorry... coz this is real de me... i'm sorry if i am annoyed for all of u... i willnot interferee all of u... i'm bad... sorry...

mabel, happy birthday ooo.. 18 years old lo...^^ wish u are health always, wish all ur dream come true..^^

last night, i heard "cry on my shoulder" my tears cant stop but more falling... after cry, my feeling better... after cry then sleep... after sleep, heart is empty... nothing to think.. i prefer to be alone and those problem i will put in my heart never let other people know... sorry if i'm selfish... although nice or bad i will put in my deep deep heart... after woke up, my eyes was bengkak...... my world still have me... anybody here?? nono...

9 june till 12 june.. happy and full..^^

from 9 june til 12 june.. my grandma and my auntie ( my dad's sister) came from tarakan.. they visited me hahahaha.. i was very happy.. i accompanied them went to walk.. hahahaha... after tht, they cooked for us.. wah it was very delicious... we went to walk and ate durian.. wah so happy.. i want to write it now coz i scare i will forget it... they cooked crab.. yes i like crab.. hahahaha... thanks ako ding and nai2, i willnot forget this moment.. i am happy because both of u had visit me... i am happy go, eat, walk with family member... both of u are like my parent.. huhuhu... when 12 june, both of u back, i got missed something.. i she bu de both of u... hahahaha i want to cry but i dun coz there were many people there.. so shy if i cried... hahahaha... i sure november i will go to surabaya to meet both of u and many people again.... friends, cousin... hahahahaha... i will eat much lo when i am there... hahahaha....i willnot forget to buy what ako ask me to buy.. hahahaha... i am reaslly happy.. moment between family, i willnot forget hahahaha..^^ saya menghargai setiap saat apa yang aku lakukan bersama siapa kapan.. itu semua akan aku simpan ke dalam hatiku yang paling paling dalam...^^

my heart is tired and that problem which i always ask in myself...

everytimes i will fight with myself... sometimes i ask myself wht is the reason for i born and live here??? sometimes i feel i am powerful to live.. but sometimes i feel bored and tired... is this life???is this which i want de life??? is my lifwe colourful??? i only know i will stay at my own world there is only me there... hehehe maybe in my world i can find my own position, do what i want or like... and i will live happily forever... hahaha... is that i want??? who can tell me what should i do now?? i am really bored ah and tired with my life.... my heart really tired to think about this problem.... i havenot interest in everything.. only song accompanys everyday..my life is only study, go to school, sleep,eat, bath then wht again?? haizz.. i'm tired ah and bored... but i still thankful about everything tht i have...

if about love or relationship ah.. this topic i dun understand.. maybe i still small to know this topic... it hasno standard in this topic.. no mark... what is love??? i dun understand... i know love is sweet like candies.... but after tht bitter like chinese medicine... love can makes someone change in everything like be happy... but after love is gone, he/ she is very sad.. sad is okey.. but there iare someone kill himself or herself coz break.. and ifnot kill herself or himself then give up everything.... i read 1 books if u can love then u must can give up and fine.. before u met love u are alone... after love is gone, u also alone... then it is same no love= love... who can tell me what is love??? how to keep it??? how to protect ourself for break?? hurt....

who can tell me what should i do now ?? how to make my life is more colourful?? need wht thing to make my life is colourful??? and who can tell me what is love???? how to protect ourself from hurt??? how to stand up from fall down???

30-31 may de camping..^^

on 30 may.. i went to camping... i'm very nervous and curious about tht... after tht arrived, many game i play.. really happy...^^ hahahaha.... i like it..^^ much sweet memory i willnot forget... let those memory plant in my deep deep heart...

in the beginning, we play catch people.... hahahaha.. if the music stop, then cannt back at her. his play will get punishment.. hahahaha... when the teacher ask me mah i with cherry pang.... i asked her who we want to catch then i ask lee kok yung's help.. hahahaha.... then after tht we play YES or NO... hahahah

this YES or NO..^^

actually only left me, ting, and corn... hahaha 3 person only.. hahah

then we play this one... hahaha .. our hand cannt broke ooo... hahahaha...

then we play run ah.... hahahaha.. so funny..

after tht jiang zuo, so tired ooo.. i slept hahahahaha..... then drink liang cha... hahahaha.. so sweet...^^ hahaha then we play 007 and talk about tht paper la... my respond is slow wnen i play 007... hahaha then we play again in jiang dang... play say out the word de colour... hehehehehe.... so hard oo level 2..... then BBQ...kenyang..^^ after tht we play BELIEVE UR PARTNER or BELIEVE EACH OTHER... hahahaha... i like this game..... all the game i like but i most like is believe each other.. hahahahaha.. we play at night.. hahaha.. my partner is mabel...^^ she close her eyes and i bring her... hahahahaha.. totally 12 thing.. hahahahaha....

after play then sleep very tired ooo but happy... i forgot to wear selimut then so cold..^^ hahaha

in morning,.... the last le.... this is before we leave..

Happy birthday Mandy teacher, thx..^^

i olso dun forget to take picture with them.. thx my friends.... without all of u, my camping isnot full of sweet memory...

this camp de thing... i will remember this always.... when i saw this key i will remember about our memory...^^ thx.. all..^^

i'm really happy..^^