Friday, November 19, 2010

初恋^^

他是我的初恋情人。
有时,会紧张
有时,会很开心。
有时,不知道要怎么样做,
不知道要怎么样哄男生开心.
他是第一个男生让我看到认真。
不像其他的人,只是玩玩。
我不喜欢玩别人的感情。
说真的,我真的不知道这个男生喜欢什么。
要送什么礼物。
有时,还会考虑他会不会喜欢?
以前我希望我的男朋友是:
高过我的,
对我很好,很了解我,很疼我,不要玩弄我的感情,不要太帅。
现在我的男朋友是
高过我,
对我很好,很疼我,没有这么帅。(对我来说他已经很帅)
我和他可以一直到永远吗?
我希望我们可以。
我希望他是第一个也是最后一个。
永远感情不变。
有时,我会怀疑他是不是真的爱我,又开始胡思乱想。T.T
但我告诉自己他是真的。
有时,我会吃醋但只是一下下。(他不知道^^)
过了,算了。
很多回忆我不可能会忘,
很开心有像他的男朋友。

希望。。。 永远。。永远。。永远。。不分开。。

Monday, November 15, 2010

Sad news....T.T

this night, i got a sad news...
although he is not my father,
but i am still sad...
he is still my family.
who gave me the best advises..
he is my 大姑姑的丈夫。
he passed away...
I CANT BELIEVE...
my brother sms to me on 8.0. pm++
he said if 姑姑的丈夫 already passed away....
then 10.00 pm++, ko ping2( my friend) called me up told me tht news...
ARH~~~
I THINK MY BROTHER PLAY ME ONLY....
huhuhu....
i called my grandma..
she said if 大姑丈 was sick, wanted to bath to go to see a doctor,
but he fell down then passed away on 4.00++ pm...


to : 大姑丈
大姑丈, thank you, because u always give me advises... although we seldom talk. but i still respect u as my 姑丈. u r always my family member.... 姑丈,why u suddenly like tht?? i just arrived tawau, why u leave us??? u r good father who cares ur children very much... i miss u oo... later noone fetch me and pick me oo in surabaya... huhu... 姑丈,thanks coz u fetched us to go to airport in early morning... goodbye 姑丈.. hope u can be fine in heaven, please sometimes find ako ding and phylicia through dream.. i think they will miss u very very much..... 姑丈, i'm sorry if i had did wrong... sorry...


to : ako ding (大姑姑)

ako, u must be patience.... yang tabah ya!!! dun to be too sad..... ako, u still have phylicia who nid ur care.... ako, u must be strong.... jia you ako... u arenot alone.. u still have me, and others... i will always at ur side to support u....


** this picture took by 大姑丈..
the girl who 带黑眼镜 is phylicia, his beloved daughter...
the women who wear black dress is my 大姑姑..

**I'M SORRY IF I HAVENOT HIS PICTURE**


this is his picture in newspaper... so sad...TT..
I CANT BELIEVE IT......
just like a dream....
bad dream.... HUHUHUHU


Saturday, November 13, 2010

graduation day^^



yipee,
finally i graduated from sabah chinese high school on 13 nov 2010, 11 am...
said truly,
i never regret continue s3.
because many activities, & it is memorable....
although the lesson is hard and difficult...
yeah~ my hair can no nid to cut lo....
but i will cut a bit la...
so it look so clean.



today is the last day to wear this uniform...


today,
so many friends , teacher cried.
because they felt to dont separate.
i didnot cry.
but when i shake hand with teacher wong yui rui,
she hug me,
suddenly i felt sad..
want to cry,
at last i dun cry...
after finish, we all find our friends to take a picture
as a sweet memory,..^^
i enjoy this day very much..
i dun regret i was tired in journey back to tawau on 12 nov..
because i know this day never back again.
if u never try,then u never know the result...


friends, i will miss all of u....
i never forget all of u...
sweet, sad, and many memories has in 6 years..
jia you lo friends,
in ur life...
after this year end, we all will go to find our way to life,
study at different college or university,
less meet,
busy university project,
hasno same holiday.

pictures:


with friends..^^ memorable day..... big day...^^

Friday, November 5, 2010

boring

yesterday i arrived at tarakan.
it is okey,
nothing change here..
but my youngest brother sick suddenly...
oh no~
nothing i can do here...
last night i chat untill 12.00
hahaha
with friends and him....
i was so happy...

today,
i dun know why, when i took my ticket for tomorrow
tomorrow i will fly to surabaya...
my heart feels pain..
i dun know why?
i feel i dun want to go to surabaya..
because my heart is at tawau...
who can help me??
i am boring here...
i just feel i want to cry and back to tawau....

mama, helps me....
i try to control myself to not cry...
but my heart is very very pain......
i want to back to tawau ooo~~
finish my s3....
later when i arrived surabaya,
i am same as sapo,
dun know to do what in home??
nothing to do...
haizzzzzz.....


i miss tawau very much~
i miss my friends ooo....
i miss him ooo...
i miss my laptop ooo....

to cherry: happy birthday ya...^^

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

想开了~

其实今天我有点不开心。
因为在我的脑海里只想着回印尼。
这件事让我有点伤心。
原本,我在学校很闷。
我就sms to him...
他真的来陪我。
哈哈~开心~
放学后,跟他们去吃东西。
开心开心~
下午,累了睡了。
睡了很长的时间。
我还做梦。
做梦到他。
在梦里,他依然对我很好很好。
起来后,还会想。
说真的,我有很多点舍不得。
我舍不得很多东西。
终于,我想通了。
我问我自己:何必要去计较呢? 何必要为了这件事而烦恼呢?
我告诉我自己:是我想太多了。
安排了,就走吧~
成功或失败,是最后的事。
做好现在吧~
尽量快快回来。
用微笑来面对,这样我可以比较快乐。
他说了很多次,做人要有自信点。
所以我想通了。
我只希望这一次我可以得到我要的结果。


今天,我替朋友开心。
因为她的家人认同她去 KL 追求她的梦想。
加油咯~
我会支持你的~
^^


这才是真正的我~
我很爱笑。
不喜欢哭。
因为我觉得哭的人是个很脆弱的人。
虽然有人说我的嘴巴很大。
但我不理。
其实笑可以让我们美。
不会让我们这么快老。
哈哈。
那是我认为啦~
不要想太多。
做好现在的东西。
要时常笑咯~^^

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

烦啊

很烦啊~
我不是烦爱情。
我是烦那个visa.
我又要叫我apply visa...
actually this saturday i just go to tarakan..
but my father book the ticket to surabaya on saturday..
it is very fast...
haizz...
为什么偏偏在这个时候??
我很不想去啊~
但不去,等下全部的错又赖在我身上。
很羡慕那些爸爸明白孩子在哪一个时间才有空,才去apply。
不是偏偏在读书时间,去apply ..

说真的,结果我有点怕。
我怕我来不及参加我的毕业典礼。
我怕被接受。
我只希望那个结果是“失败”的
这样我可以回斗湖。
继续我的学业。
给一些朋友有邀请去他的活动,
只能说一声抱歉。

我一定要回来的。
虽然我知道会很累,
但为了我的毕业典礼,和可以跟朋友 join 在一起
都是值得的。
大家帮我祈祷。好不好??可不可以?
谢谢。